I did not post this monstrosity.

(Source: airows, via imjustagirlintheworld)

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It’s not like I try to be disconnected from my family.  But I am nothing like anyone; not my mom, not my dad, not my grandparents and definitely nothing like my brother.

I wish I could feel like I belong in this family.  But I really don’t.  I don’t look forward to awkward Christmas Eve with the strangers I’ve known my whole life.  Everyone is uncomfortable, it’s obvious.

I wish I knew my dad’s side more.  But everyone is so far away and when they do talk to/about me, it’s never anything nice.  

One of these days, I hope to have a family that stays together, even if I have to start from scratch.  A family that helps each other and spends time together and goes on vacation together.  I haven’t had that in a very, very long time.

I try to accept it but I feel like it’s so overplayed.